thoughts

it's been a while since the last time
when you had nothing in mind than your life
and the thoughts of ending that.

i saw you lifting a knife
i saw you used it 
in your arms they are still scars
you can see them too if you look 

i saw you been down
i saw you cry 
i saw you shaking from pain
i saw you fail to end your life

i was so close but so far away
from helping you
instead i watched you bleed 
i watched you hiding behind your smile
i watched you lie  so can never tell

so can never tell your pain inside
your fear inside
because when you took that drugs 
you thought could fly away 

you are down here with us
still trying to be strong 
still trying to hold on 
for how long?