how i losed you

the first time i saw you ,i really liked you . Some time moved by and we met again ,it was obvious i was completely into you  .Then you have to left but we started to  chat since you were away. Day by day we were talking and day by day i was more into you .Soon i realised that you are into me as well ,that feeling was the best feeling i felt after i learnt my mother was cured from cancer . That feeling of knowing such a beautiful person and such wonderful lady was into you  the way you was into her  ,what i wouldn't do to feel that again with you .We talked and talked and waited the moment you  would come back and finally see eye to eye .Till that time though i fall in love with you ,i told you and even though i might believe it was to early to say it ,i  meant it every time  i said it and the best part was that you said it to.Days finally gone by and our meeting was finally arranged , on top of a new crossing bridge in front of the sea . I will never forget my heart running like a Ferrari when i saw you coming up and i will never forget the moment we first touched and hugged.we then went to eat , we talked and then i realised that the feelings where more than true . We went for a small walk and sat on the beds just waiting for the right time to kiss you ,when it came i just did and my world suddenly felt complete . A lot  happened that summer though , even though i loved you i  was afraid to show it and was afraid of  been hurt again ,that made me do all the stupid and silly mistakes i did which let to breaking up .Before you go i tried  again  but was the  wrong way to , so i let you  go without really showing how much i wanted you . You went away for your studies and we kept in touch ,i tried more than once to show you how much you meant to me and how much i loved and still love you but you had every right to move on with your life ,after all you had your final year to finish.I kept trying though didn't wanted to be a push over so i gave you space and time , then i tried again and again and again but you were all ready gone . Now  i know you are with someone else ,we still talk of course but it  still breaks my heart and soul to see you with another man, i am trying to be strong but i can't ,not this time . I loved you truly and i still do but seeing you with someone else is killing me deep inside but i wont stop ,not because of jealousy but because i love you and i won't stop trying to get you back and i wont stop being there for you and i wont stop dreaming of us being together .i will simply wont give up on you , i won't give up on us even if it means going through the gates of hell again and walk all of it till i come out of it waiting for you . I am sorry but i wont stop

Yann Tiersen - La Chute

a man  sitting alone at his desk, only a small candle lighting up the room .
enough for him to see and write on that empty paper laying in front of him
His hand is shaking and he is nearly ready  fall asleep from the exhaustion
but he has to write this before he fall down.
as he starts to write his tears go rushing down his cheeks till his chin ,
then they fall down just at the end of the paper.
He tries to calm down and write this letter,he takes a deep breath starts writing
He lay his heart wide open with the words he writes ,his emotions are running high
and the tears  just wont stop, he remembers all the good memories he had with her ,
he knows she is with another man but he still believes in that small once in trillion chance
of being with her . He knows that what he writes ,she may never see them but even if she doesn't
no one knows what she ll do ,cause she is with another man and he is alone writing this love letter .
He writes and writes all the love he has for her and the mistakes he did and lost her .
his eyes started to hurt so bad and he decides to finish the letter with simple words
''I love you''

loving nightmare

wish this was just a dream
that one day i will wake up from this nightmare
days are going by really hard
each day seems like a year
and every week seems like a milenium
hope one day i finally wake up this nightmare
cause there was no nightmare before like this one
no monsters needed and no deaths involved
just a heart loving another heart which gave it's love to someone else
but this hard is broken once more
he believed he wouldn't love anyone once more
and here he is again ,broken ,hurt and left alone
to feel the pain and the sorrow
every day is going into a loop
what happens today ,happens tomorrow and happened yesterday.
this can't be a reality but sure it's a dream world
cause in the real life  i will be yours
and not this nightmare i live day by day

our end

we will meet again
we will meet again at the dawn of the sun
we will meet again when we both stare at the moon and stars
we will meet again as soon as your plane touch the land
i ll be waiting outside
i will be waiting for you to come  i ll catch you by surprise
i will be waiting to see your face when you see me at the gates
and hopefully seeing me there will make you see why i didn't gave up
and hopefully you ll realise that what i told you all this time is real
 but ...
till that day comes i ll be counting the days and the hours
till that day comes i ll be trying to hold me together
cause i know it's hard to get you back
i know it's hard to see  my love for you
especially when you are with someone else
but...
deep in my heart i hope that our end was not back then
our end is yet to come ,for our end will be after decades
when our bones turn to dust and when the wind blow us apart
then and only will be our end 

one year

one year ago i said i love you

today i still do 

one year ago we were together

today we no longer are 

bleeding heart

7 months ago i saw you 

in 3 more i ll see you again they say when you don't see ones eyes you easily forget about them .

a lobotomy wont help erase my memories i held with you

cause they are far deeper written somewhere else

memories fade away with time and brain makes sure for it 

but memories written in the heart they  stay forever 

always and forever .

i let my heart closed when we were together but i opened it up when we were apart

that mistake cost me your love and now the pain in my heart is heavy .

it's not easy to love and its not easy to show your love 

but every time i do it pains me even more 

every time i love the wounds bleed again

the medicine is simple but so difficult to have

just a true kiss to my heart and the pain is sealed away 

but till that day i ll wait 

till that day i ll suffer the pain 

till that day the wounds will bleed and till that day 

i will not stop loving you 

Marek Iwaszkiewicz - a Miserable Heart

in a cold  foggy night , a young man is sitting alone near the lake.

the moon lights parts of the lake while a thick veil of fog covers the surface of the lake.

the man seems to be crying ,having a notebook and a pen in his hand.

he writes something and he screams but his scream doesn't make  a sound 

the words he writes shout that the man is heartbroken and sad 

shout that he lost the one he believe was the one .

his pain is visible through his words and his heart is breaking a bit more with every phrase he finish.

he takes one look up in to the  moon  .he stands up and starts to walk .leaving his notebook behind on the bench .the fog swallows him in and he is nowhere to be seen .

in his notebook is written one simple phrase. scratch and crooked with fat lines ''I LOVE YOU '' 

Yann tiersen - Sur le Fil

a man  all alone in his mansion  while outside the storm is raging .
almost all of his house is empty but a small room
in that room he is there companied by his piano ,his whiskey ,his bed ,his fireplace and more importantly his memories.
he plays alone in his almos dark rook ,his memories run wild like the storm outside
he suddenly stars to get lost in his playing while the lightings are dancing to his rythum .
the fire is burning constanly like his heart is burning to meet her again .
he plays his last couple of notes and goes to sleep but not before he drinks another glass of  whiskey ...

Circadian Eyes - What Remains Of Our Chalk Road

a 16 years old boy in the hospital is listening to his doctors speak,they say his cancer is fatal and has some months to live . the boy stoically hears that and stays in bed looking outside the window, he  stands up and goes to the window and watching outside the bright day ,the sun is strong and big ,in that moment he makes his choice ,he goes back to bed and dreaming .moments later he jumps out the bed ,start running at the front  door ,his doctors screaming but he keeps running away. outside the hospital he is lucky enough to find a bike unchained ,he takes it and starts to life ,he is smiling and he is having fun .he rides on a road where the trees have created a tunnel. He reaches to a cliff and stands right on the edge lifting his hands to the side feeling like flying ,he then let his self fall back and for that slightly moment he think he is flying , he finds a small white rock and searches for a bigger dark coloured rock, he finds it and writes on it ."family i love you all and C...... i loved you all this time ". he then turns back to hospital smiling and feeling happy after all this time ....