hope you are lucky enough

Finding eternal love is a destination

to get that destination you ll have to take some roads

those roads might start up straight but soon you ll see curves

soon the roads will have ups and downs

there will be some bumpers and you might even find some holes as well

you will encounter road blocks and sometimes dead ends

you are going to take a failed turn and then you take another failed turn

going through dirt roads or really dark roads

sometimes you might need to create your own roads though

and sometimes you will run with 1000 miles and sometimes you go really slow

you will crush and burn and sometimes you ll be lucky to not feel that much

but keep going

cause eternal love it's worth all this trouble ,if it didn't worth it you wouldn't had to work so hard

so be patient

be strong

be open to love again and to be loved

and I wish you to find your eternal love as soon as you possibly can

or if you are lucky ,your first love will be your eternal love .

but always have in mind that no matter how many times you get hurt

when the one time is the true one ,nothing else will matter at last

for you ll be forever together with your soul and you will finally reach your destination

so my friend I wish you good luck and who knows maybe your love awaits just around the next turn or at the end of this dark road .

we humans

Sometimes all you need are few piano notes and a big imagination .

While the first notes hit you in the back of you mind and start to full It with joy and pleasure

you close your eyes and finally you are lifted up

you are no longer walking on earth but you are walking through the clouds

resting on top of a white cloud watching the sun brighter than ever before

feeling so relaxed and so calmed as you never felt like this before

and in the middle of this travel you leave you body free

you then start floating and slowly you are leaving earth

in the outer space you are now and watching down on earth

what a beautiful sight you have in front of you

the place we call home

so magnificent that you are overwhelmed by it's grace

you can see storms in one hemisphere while in the other they are not even clouds

you can see the oceans ,the mountains the continents and the countries

divided by nothing at all

only the oceans divide the continents you don't see borders

you don't see people of different race

you just see the one race , earthlings

you see that after all this wars after all this pain we created to this planet

we still haven't learned ,we still fight for something that simply has no sense what so ever

and we still separate our self from each other believing that we are better than each other

that one race is superior than the other race ,that we are even better than animals

where animals have for centuries lived together to survive

we don't try to survive though we try to dominate our planet

where our planet only seeks to provide us with a healthy environment but even that we kill it

we as humans are the biggest threat of this planet and soon enough we won't even have earth to call it our home .

setting up my foundations

When fallen deep in my depression I wished for so many times that I never missed you and more importanly never loved you

I sometimes wish I could be able not to love and not to leave my heart in danger every time

I don't know why it hurt so much more than all the heartbreaks I felt before but it did

and every day I wished it wouldn’t hurt

i wish that in a moment of my self doubt

and in a moment of my suicidal thoughts that you would arrive

like the first time you arrived to my life and filled it with light .

But then you choose to leave and you left me behind in my darkness .

I am not angry anymore and I am not in denial anymore

neither I live in an imaginary world where you and me are together and happily ever after .

When you left , you took with you my light but that helped me realize that I still didn't had my own light ,so I searched deep in my soul ,i scratched and bleed my way to find my light and so I did .

It might took me long time to do so and I might had to shed many tears but I eventually did ,

I wont say I did it alone cause thankfully I am never alone in my life even though my self destructive side tried to prove me the exact opposite of that ,numerous time in the past but my past is what made me who I am today

I am not complete I am sure about that, am still a working project but finally after 25 years

I have really found my own light and I have set my own foundations and each day from now on I ll build on those foundations ,brick by brick I ll create the life I want and you ll always be invited to join my life , as friends ,as partners os as just two people who had a summer crush ,that is up to you . Till that day you decide I ll be slowing building my own home and the people who trully love me are welcome to stay in.

for my aunt

How I wish I wouldn't had lost you

I know there was nothing I could have done to prevent it

I know that once we knew the truth , it was already in progress

we only could have slowed it down .

But I am sorry I wasn't there

I am sorry I couldn't not be there for you

I am sorry I didn't hold your hand when I should had

or kiss and hugged you when I had the chance

even at the end you still remembered who I was

and that is breaking my heart even now

I am not dreaming ,i know you are gone

I am not looking for a salvation

I know you are better off now

but even if the years pass by

I will always have you in my heart or better yet

I will always have you next to me

I just wish you know that I loved you

and I will always remember you

who is crying now ?

You seek love in the same places you lost it and then you go and start complaining about it

you so easily bypass people who could actually right for you or at least love you truly

you turn down so many people or best-friend them because they didn't ''fit'' in your standards

but who is the one complaining about not finding true love ,who is the one crying over people who don't know what love is or crying for people who didn't ''loved'' you back .Surely the people who truly tried to love you and stay by your side even after you chose to just be friends with ,they don't cry , they don't complain about not finding true love,they only care that you turn down their love but they know that the one who really miss something is you and not them .Yes you might be beautiful and you might have many experiences before but again who is alone and complaining ?

Those people don't love at random , they have been hurt before they have been truly hurt before and not the kind of hurt you thing you gone through the last time someone just didn't want you,no they have been through life changing pain .They felt so much pain in their life that there soul raised an iron wall for protection , but that wall has a door and that door opens only for the people they want to open to or for the people who are brave enough to know their door and ask to get inside.

You see after all that pain they had to be somehow protective but even then ,when they ll love someone their door is wide open for that person to walk in at any time and yet you chose to ignore that kind of love that person chose to give you. So keep crying and complaining about your ''love'' life while the people you turned down are seeking for the person who wont be afraid to love them and feel truly loved  

focus on the good side

Lots of people will write about love and write about heart breaks and pain and sorrow and all those moments they cried,  I ve rarely seen anyone writes about all the good moments in that love.
If we keep focusing on all the bad moments we are slowly becoming heartless creatures, when we only see the sad feelings, love showed us, but we ignore all those good feelings then we as creatures, we belittle our selves and we close doors to people who can actually love us again, we become distant and cold.When we focus though on the good things about love we allow our self to heal faster and become a person who can actually love and be loved trully in the future ,i know is not easy and I know is not painfree ,we all have to go through pain to do this and we ll have to find the power the survive that battle .A battle that will leave scars in the soul and they will be carried along with you till the day you die .There will be always be a war going on between us ,sometimes we ll win and sometimes we ll lose but what matters the most is when we do lose ,we must recollect our pieces and put them back together and be prepare for the next battel ,for when we ll be at our most valnuarable everything will collapse on top of us and if we are not strong enough they will bury us deep and we might not never emerge fully back to life after that . will collapse on top of us and if we are not strong enough they will bury us deep and we might not never emerge fully back to life after that .

my alternative reality

Sometimes I caught my self thinking back

and memories instantly live up in my brain

my eyes start to roll like a movie reel

and all the images are flushing right in front of me

In those moments I feel complete

for I ,in those moments I transcend to another dimension

a dimension where feelings are enhanced and are felt more lively

in that dimension I get to feel the pain of my heart grow bigger

I feel the sadness I felt when my relative and friends died

feeling once the vanishing every time my dreams got crushed down over and over again

I feel all the hatred I had to endure and all the badmouthing I went through

but then my life gets brighter cause in that dimension happiness is somehow real

it destroys those sad and painful moments but not before you learn new things about yourself

and what I learned is that after all that pain ; I find my heart loving again I realize my mind is not giving up on the dreams I made even though everything seem so doomed , I realize that all that hate made me a better person and made me who I am.

So I embrace that reality ,i let it trainwreck my feelings cause in the end I know I ll be stronger than before .

dark shadows

A man wakes up from his sleep

his eyes are a bit swollen

and sadness can be seen through them

he rush to the bathroom for the morning relief

he next washes his hands and take a look in the mirror

he see endless Grey shadows staring back at him

he is having his breakfast alone

alone like he is for the last 10 years

and the shadows are still around him

he decides to go for a walk in the park

he has no job anymore

he is ''alone'' and sad

he starts to walk through the park

it's nearly 6 o'clock and no much people are around

the scene feels like his life empty but calm

as he walks ,the shadows start to circle him around

one by one they are trying to penetrate his mind

they go though his ears and shake his body apart

he tries to keep them off but they always found a way to get in

he starts running fast to get away from the shadows

he never run before so he has no stamina in him

his lungs anyway are filled with the shadows

they are blocking him from breathing and not leaving him to rest

he is fighting inside but he keeps running

reaching at the end of the park he turns left to take a path he never took before

he is running uphill now and he is gasping out of air

the shadows are just behind him waiting for him to stop running

he reaches at the top of the small hill where there is a small green field

he can see some parts of the city from there but most importantly the sun

the sun shines upon his face and he can't take a light so bright

exhausted he  falls to the ground
but as he does ,the shadows slowly encircle him slowly

and they drowning him another one time  

on this christmas night

Christmas night and walking in the streets

the night is cold and raining

and me , walking with just a waterproof on

I walk through the park we used to meet

and there is no one to be found

and me , i stand and watch silently

between the town's dark streets I move

seeing families being together in their warm houses

and me ,I stop and stare

been walking for a long time now and reaching at the sea

I take my shoes of and walk till the waves touch my feet

I stop and stare upon the stars

walking through the town I come outside your house

but you are not inside ,no one is .

So I keep walking to get back home

I walk by many friends and they salute me in my path

I take one last look in the night stars and farewell my friends

while I lay back on grave .

the pale man ( inspired by Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre )

During a cold cloudy night in winter ,

inside a medieval mansion

is held a party celebrating the union of two people

someone knocks the door and ask if he may enter

he seems a bit lost but he is cold as ice

the wind outside made him look pale

He enters the room where the guests are dancing

no one notices him as he makes his way to the wine table

the people are dancing in an ethereal way like they are walking on clouds

they are all happy and enjoy their dancing

The pale man even though he is now warmed still looks cold

he then move on near the fireplace to get his hand warm

a man reaches out to him and talk him into start dancing with them

and he accepts right in the spot

At first the pale man dances alone till the fine lady of the house comes close

she asks him if he wants to dance together

and respectfully he says yes and so they begin

They start dancing slow but the lady asks the pale man to let him self go

and so he does

They pick up the pace and start dancing like a couple being together for many years

their dance is so mesmerizing that all the people around make room and let them dance

as they perform ,you can only hear the orchestra playing and the two dancing

While being in an ecstatic form the pale man does something no one else thought off

he leans and kiss the lady's neck

but that is no ordinary kiss ,for it is the kiss of death

the lady falls down dead and the pale man starts to hunt anyone he see

every guest is running for their life but the pale man one by one kiss them to death

kiss after kiss till there is no one else alive

and when the last one fall to ground the pale man sits beneath the fireplace

laughing in a sadistic way enjoying his masterpiece   

let them love you

Let a poet love you and you ll never get tired of listening how he speaks about you

Let a musician love you and his songs will always be about you in someway

let a painter love you and he ll make you his mona Lisa

let a photographer love you and he ll turn all your negativity into positivity

let an actor love you and he ll always safe his truest kisses just for you

let a man loves you truly and he ll become all of them just to make this love a perfection

let a man loves you and he ll pass all the oceans in front of him to be with you

he ll climb all the mountains just to get a glimpse of you

he ll fly to the moon and back just to bring you a rare moonstone

something so rare as your beauty

let a man loves you and he ll fight all the demons in hell so there is no other place than heaven to go

to the people who love

people who love deeply even after break ups

there people who lift pounds from the ground

they are some people who brag about their strength

there physically strength

don't get me wrong

I know it takes a strong mentality

to be psychically strong

but for me true strength comes in other ways

for me strong are the people who love

for they know pain first hand

they have been hurt before

and surely they have their heart broken before

cheated and used from so many they called friends

they might have been depressed

and might also been structuralist

but even with all their pains

they still find reasons to smile

even when their heart is smashed to pieces

they pick them up and they deeply love again

when you need them they ll be there

when you need true warming hug they I ll provide one

one of the most honest and loving hugs you ll ever get

like an angel they ll stand beside you

while in their darkness they shine the way for you

and sometimes they even sacrifice their live for you

and yet we call them looser and unstable

For me they are the true heroes

call me a dreamer call me to imaginative

but they deserve all the good in this world

they deserve all the smiles they can get

but most importantly they deserve all the respect we can give them

so if you are lucky enough to have someone in your life like that

cherish them ,love them and hold them strong

and most importantly show them that they  belong in this world 

nothing wrong

there is nothing wrong with you

no matter what people say you are true

you are a dreamer ,a worrier

you care to much and love deeply

your heart though burns every time you love

cause you can't hold back you just love

and when you open up your gates

your heart is an easy target

and so often in your life it got broken

you dream too much sometimes

and you dream to big

so big that people call you crazy and immature

they believe you don't want to live in this world

and sometimes you believe them

making yourself sad because you don't fit in their world

In the end though you know

you know that no one has to understand the life you live

but they have to respect it ,they don't need to accept your choices

but the choices you made where yours and yours alone

and finally when you finally accomplish your dreams

you can say that you gave it all and it was forth the pain and tears 

we as poets

the poets are one of most damned people in the world

they are often misunderstood

they are treated like crazy people

they are treated like society's black ships

the don't see the world like the rest

the world is seen through their poems

but the reality is

the world lives through them

they don't care about small things

they care about big dreams

and they don't care about being the best

they care about being the very best

being the best in poetry doesn’t mean money

it surely doesn't mean a wealthy life

it means poets recognize your art

it means inspiring others to start their writing journey

they often seek attention through their poems

some other times they express love

they express the human loss

they make you feel whith their words

your feelings will awaken when reading their poems

and hopefully you ll transcend your knowledge


that for them is what being the best means
that small moment when their words hit your brain
and make him cry,smile or feel nostalgic
that is what they seek for and honestly that is what we live for

ordinary night

This day was the first day
This night was the first night
This night was the first kiss
Today is an ordinary day
Tonight will be an ordinary night
Tonight there wont be a kiss

i don't hate you

I don't hate you

I don't know you

I really don't care who you are

I really don't care where you are from

I don't even care how old you are

neither I care what your dream is

I surely don't know what you do for a living

and I don't know what you be been through

what I know is that you are with her

what I know is that you are her world

I care that you make her happy

I care that you are there for her

I care that you make her smile

I care that you might share future dreams

I care that you might live together

and that you go through hard times together

I don't know if you love her

I don't even know if you just like her

but what I know is that I am happy for her

not for you ,simply for her

that she is happy and she smiles when she is with you

as cliché as this might sound

break her heart once and forever have an enemy

an enemy seeking vengeage for her broken heart

i love the way

I love the sound of your voice
And the way your hair smells
I love the way you drive my crazy
but I love the way you always comfort me

I Love the way you dress
and when you always look so great
I love you so much that my heart aches
but the aches go away the moment I see your eyes

I love that we communicate
and that read each others mind
I love it when you make me laugh

but I love more when I see you smile

I love it when you touch my hand

and when I feel that spark
but finally I love the way I love you

but most importanly the way you love me 

that rare gem

you seek for someone to talk to , you seek someone to love you , you seek someone to be there for you and then you seek some one who can do everything for you ,you find someone though actually he/she finds you . That someone ask you how you are everyday ,cares for you everyday and look out for you everyday ,that someone is always there to help you out when you need it that some one it's always ready to listen to you always ready to comfort you and always ready to make you feel OK

.that someone makes time for you ,even if that someone has things to do he/she finds time for you ,even in his/hers busy day he/she still founds time for you , that some one surely loves you ,maybe he/she loves you more than just a friend but even if she/he loves you just as friend ,that someone does it because you mean something to him/her .that some one if you ask him/her in the middle of the night to help you out he/she will do that because he/she really cares . You will never listen him/her say anything bad about you and will never stab you In the back . But that someone has his/her limits and eventually those limits do break and then they become distant from you ,not because they hate you but simply because you don't give nothing back ,you just keep complaining about not having no one to talk and that no one loves you and cares for you, when day after day after day after day that someone was there waiting patiently for you to see him/her .But that's how life is that someone will go away but he/she ll be OK at the end cause they ll be in peace with them self and they ll eventually find someone to appreciate them back where you in the other hand ...you ll be left seeking for that rare gem while you might just might lost the rarest of them all ...

let go

They are two painfull paths in ones love   life ,
either let go and move one
or  keep fighting on
when you love someone and you are no longer together
you choose to keep fightin for that love or let go
keep fighting though takes all your time  and all you strength
you fight for a love that it might all ready gone forever
but you miss her/him and you love her/him
you want them to be happy but
you want tehm to be happy with you
you get jealous when they are with someone else
and then you get your heart broken day by day
but that's how life  is you get hurt again and again
so you choose eitehr you choose fighting for that love or you let go
but let go means you loose everything you hoped for
and letting go doesn't mean you move one it just means you let go of them
you just let them live their life ,you live your life without regreds
cause you know deep in your heart you did everything
everything  you could to keep that love alive
and everything you could to make things right
but it comes a time you just can't fight anymore and you choose
either keep fighting on an possibly keep hyrting your soul
or you choose to let go

i would have

I would love to be by your side every morning and be the first person you see

to be the first person to see how beautifull you still look under the morning sun

I know you love sunsets and that you would love to see them each day

but instead I would love to see sunrises with you

because then I ll know that I ve spent another day being with you

I would be there for you every time you feel down to cheer you up

and I would be there when your frustration kicks in to hold you together

when you need a hug I would have been there to hold you tight in my arms

I would even walk a thousand miles just to make you feel right

in rain ,in storms I wouldn't mind cause seeing you smile

would make my life shine bright

I should have already done all this, could have done all this but now I only dream

what whould happen I would have done all this for you ...

that time in life

it comes a time in life where you have to step back and see things clearly ,you have to re-evaluate your life and how you spent your time and most importantly how you spent your time ,realise what really makes you happy and what really makes you sad,you have to find what is best for you and what is best for the rest  but not for you . In the end you ll see that you have to let go of something ,you ll have to let go of some dreams because they are not really lifelong dreams they are just thoughts ,lifelong dreams will never stop being the fundamentals of your life ,the ground where minor dreams will grow but like flowers and trees every now and then you have to cut  the  dead flowers and trees so new ones will emerge .you ll see that minor things do really make you happy and that things you do day after day after day just squeeze the energy out of you ,you ll have to find those small things ,those small memories, those small moments and cherish them as long as they last  cause for they might not last long but their power will stay in you for long.Finally you ll have to let go off people,this is the hardest part of them all cause till know you might had to let go ,things ,thoughts,ideas and dreams but letting go of a person takes true will and power, you ll have to let go of people that when you are around them you feel your energy drained by them for no reason ,you ll have to let go though people you love . So often we confuse letting go with forgetting ,you wont forget them even if you really wanted to you can't cause they will always be in your heart no matter how many years pass they will be there .You need to do so though cause by letting them go you ll let them free and you let your heart free as well to love again and love more people ,  even if they are dead ,their memories will forever remain but you can't allow  those memories to haunt your dreams ,you true love ? if you have tried and you reached a point where there is nothing else you can do ,then it's time to let go ,you know you ll still love her/him but for your soul's sake you have to let go,it doesn't mean you have to move one  to another girl/guy but it means that their ab sense wont matter anymore .

prove them wrong

often in life you get told you are not good enough
you often told you wont make it or you won't succeed
i know i have been told this many times before
and i am sure that i ll hear it in the future again and again
but i keep prove them all wrong
i keep proving my self wrong
because no matter what people say
at the end you are  the one responsible for your actions
you have to live with your choices not them
if something goes wrong is you to blame no one else
and if they are consiquences which they will be
you ll be the one to face them and not them
even if you ve heared it before an so many times
allways push to make things  right for you
and even though you ve heared it before
never quit and never stop dreaming 

an ode to her

How I wish I could turn back the time 
and make all things right 
then I remember I can’t turn it back 
but I can make things right
don’t know when don’t know where
but that time will come
and when the times come
I ll never forget your birthday
neither will I forget your are a picses
I didn’t forget your favorite music neither your favorite food
and so while listening to Laura or Lucero or even Eleni
I will be make for you ,your favorite pastas with no fish of course
when you finish your hard working day I ll be there
I ll be there waiting you home with a box full of lacta and caldbury pieces
and two movies to watch together ,one comedy and one mystery
when we ll plan our trips abroad I ll have in mind you favorites towns
and the places you wish to visit next but knowing how spontaneous you are
I would simply let you choose the next stop
when you feeling down or when you are sick
I ll be there making you , your tea even though I hate twinnings
and putting on screen for you to see ,Tom and jerry and bugs bunny
even though it’s not the perfect job I would love to work to starbucks
simply to hear you order your favorite drink and misspell your name on purpose
so we have to talk just a little bit more before you go .
I am not the guy who would buy you a bouquet of flowers
but I would buy you one red ,one white rose along with tulips and ofcourse white camelias.
And I might not be the guy who ll take you to fancy places or expensive restaurants but
I ll make sure wherever we go ,will be the best dinner of your life till the next one ofcourse
and when the night closes down ,and we are in bed ,i will slowly and kindly kiss you
till our bodies finally united by love and wake up in each other’s arms
having our breakfast croissant with latte caramel macchiato and then plan our day .
I can’t promise you a fancy life but I promise you with me you ll never feel lonely
I promise you though I ll do my best to live in one your favorite places
either in limassol either abroad ,i ll promise I ll follow you till the end of the world
but most of all
I promise you I ll be sweet and I will be good with you
I will never show you what you fear the most and I ll be the man you deserve to be with”

at all

right now i am a mess
you want to love me ?
be my quess
people have tried before
they loved me when i was good
they loved me when i was fine
but one person only loved me
while i was depressed
i am not depressed though
i am just a mess
i can't say i will love
cause right now i just want to be loved
i can't know if i ll give you anything back
cause right now i am as empty as i can be
i don't want this
i never asked for this
but i am emotionaly draught
if you love me just say it
but expect nothing back
cause i have been hurt
time and time again
so loving so fast i am afraid
and the fear will hold me back
so either love my trully
or don't love my at all 

love the sea

no matter the season
no matter the weather condition
the sea is always there
sometimes it's wavy
and then it's calm
sometimes it's raging
and sometimes is stady as oil

even when the sea is cold
i still go for my swim
the water might be cold
but if you withstand it
you instantly grow stronger
mentally and physicly

when in but mood
the sea is there to heal me
heal my soul's pain
and heal my body's scars
when i am hurt

when i need time alone
i sit on the beach
clearly thinking
and clearly breathing

when i thinkg of my future
i go and sit in the sea
whith clairvoyance  in mind

while in the sea i am healed
from everything but one thing

my love for you

promises of a house

i cant promise you big houses
cant promise you a wealthy life
cant promise you  an easy life
i don't have a house to shelter you from storms
neither do i have the money to help you travel the world

my dreams are big and scary and i can't make you follow them
i can't promise you that i ll be here for ever
neither i can promise you i ll know all the answer

i however have a huge house called
my heart
ready to accept you in at any given time
my house is ready to shelter you from any storm
can't say that my house can take you on trips
but it can surely travel your soul to places beyond imagination
in my house you can rest your dreams and they will play along with mine
as long as this house stands tall ,it will be there for you
and even though it might not have all the answers
it will always  have the right ones to sooth your soul

all i ask

i am not perfect i know
but then again nobody is
i can't say i had a tough life
but neither i had a perfect one
my road wasn't straight
but it was fun
i have been hurt before
but i survived it all

so if you want to be in my life
know this first
i am not an easy person
but i am fun to be around
i can't say i am the best
but i ll always be there for you
treat me right i ll try you even better

if you planning on loving me
know this first
i have been heartbroken before
couple of times to be more presice
so all i ask is one thing
bare with me

cause i don't love easy anymore
but when i do is gonna be for real
so if you planning to love me
be real from the start
and have the guts to stand by me
cause i will fall again
and i will rise again
but if you are with me at my lowest
i ll always be with you at my heighest

i don't know what love is i confess

so what is love for you ?
love for me is...
the moment you see them for the  first time .
call me hopelessly romantic but i do believe in love at first sight
that feeling you have in your heart when you see the one you love
that feeling you have when you see her smile  and instantly everything turns so much better for you as well cause her smile can shine through all the darkness in you.
when she looks in your eyes it;s like she looks deep in you and your souls just connect and share their experience with just that look .
when you think of her and she text you out of the blue
when you plan your days ,your weekends your holidays with her
when you try to sleep at nights but she wonders in your thoughts messing you around and not letting you sleep
 but love is also when you miss her so much it's hurts
when she is no longer with you and you learn she is with another man ,that feeling you get in your heart ,of  a knife cutting you up.
you know it's not jealousy because you loved her before but that specific moment you know she might for ever gone
as you can see i don't really know what love is
i haven't been good with love in my life even though i know i love you
i don't know how to show it i confess
and when i do show it i don't know if its the right way
all i know is that we are apart
i tried to get you back but it was not meant to be back then
no it's not meant to be cause you are with another man
i can't make you stop being with him
and i won't stop your  happiness with him
but as bad as it's sounds i ll wait
i know some day  we ll be together
i know at some point we ll meet again and we ll be united by love once more
cause i remember the first time i saw you
and i remember the first time i kissed you
those memories will never fade away
they ll inhibit in my heart and forever wait you to come back
till then my love i confess
i loved you all this time and i failed to show it right
but  come next time
our love will be stronger than ever before ...

just like stars

just like the starts wait all day to shine through the night
just like that i ll wait
just like the sun lights up the start
just like that you light me up
no i don't say i am a star
but your are the sun
for without you i can't shine
and with you i am burning bright 

i do believe

Cant it  be one year
A year ago this season we where together
Maybe we still are in some other life
Everyday i really wish that we didn't broke up
Loving you was not a mistake
It was the best think i did in my life but i let it go away
And now we are worlds apart

I do believe though some day we ll be united by love again

Love that we did shared is never erased
Only when we fall to our graves we ll be apart but then again i ll love in the afterlife
Visiting your favorite places and eternally have our vacations
Everyday will be ours

You do know though that i still love you in this life aswell
Only that i wont wait till afterlife to be with you ,i will wait for ever more
Upon our next meet . i ll be forever yours

firestorm

you came in my life like a firestorm

so rare ,so beautiful so extreme 

but at the same time so destructive

the 36 list

1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?  Tim burton

2. Would you like to be famous? In what way? yes , photographer

3. Before making a telephone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why? sometimes yes :P so i am sure i am not saying bullshit :P

4. What would constitute a “perfect” day for you? workout,friends,family,love, readin, relaxing :

5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else? couple of months ago 

6. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want? the mind 

7. Do you have a secret hunch about how you will die?  yeap 

8. Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common.

i don't have  a partner :P 

9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful? Mother

friends 

10. If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be? have more time with parents 

11. Take four minutes and tell your partner your life story in as much detail as possible. 

12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability, what would it be? multilingual 

13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know? if i will get married and have kids 

14. Is there something that you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it? being a famous photographer,,working on it 

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life? loosing excessive weight achieving personal goals.

16. What do you value most in a friendship? loyalty and honesty 

17. What is your most treasured memory? none specific 

18. What is your most terrible memory? the death of family members and firends 

19. If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why? not really  ,i am ok the way  i am living 

20. What does friendship mean to you? everything 

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life? big part especially in recent years 

22. Alternate sharing something you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five items. 

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people’s? it's close allright ,sure happier than most people , can't complain 

24. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother? i love her 

Set III

25. Make three true “we” statements each. For instance, “We are both in this room feeling ... “

26. Complete this sentence: “I wish I had someone with whom I could share ... “my dreams ,the trip achieving them and enjoy the result 

27. If you were going to become a close friend with your partner, please share what would be important for him or her to know.

28. Tell your partner what you like about them; be very honest this time, saying things that you might not say to someone you’ve just met.

29. Share with your partner an embarrassing moment in your life.

30. When did you last cry in front of another person? By yourself? one week ago , one week ago 

31. Tell your partner something that you like about them already.

32. What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about? major health issues 

33. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet? that i love  all of my friends and family 

34. Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be? Why?  a photograph of me and my passed away aunt 

35. Of all the people in your family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why? mother cause i love her ,grandmother cause she raised me and my godmother for being there for me all the time ...

36. Share a personal problem and ask your partner’s advice on how he or she might handle it. Also, ask your partner to reflect back to you how you seem to be feeling about the problem you have chosen.

Reasons

1: beautiful

2: dynamic

3: classy

4: fierce

5:WOMAN 

6: goal oriented

7 :dreamer

8 : really smart

9 : athletic

10: open mind

11 : funny

12 : emotional

13 : lover

14 : giver 

15 : wonderful smile

16 : positive 

17 : strong willed 

18 : friendly

19 : outgoing

20 : happy 

21 : mature

22 : respectful

23 : anti racist

24 : anti homophobes 

25 : talkative 

26 : supporter

27 : loyal

28 : multilingual :P 

29 : mentally strong 

30 : book lover 

 also 

31 : love the way we kissed 

32 : the way we held hands

33 : the way we hugged

34 : they way we made love 

35 : the moments we share 

36 : the way we first saw each other 

37 : the way we first touched  :) 

38 : your first comment :P 

39 :the moments we shared

40 : the  small risks we took 

41 : even the way you cried 

42 : the way you smiled though

43 : the way we talked 

44 : the way you put up with me 

45 : the way i made you laugh

46 : the way you made me laugh 

47 : even the way you made me cry 

48 : loved the way you tried to push me do things 

49 : loved the way  we thought about the future 

50 : pretty much everything we ever did together 

heart and brain

didn't felt love at first sight before
neither i knew what that feeling was
never knew that two eyes
seen each other for the first time
could occupy such a big space in your heart and soul
cause my heart and soul knew right away
my brain was trying to refuse it
the heart was eager to love and to be loved again
but the brain was to afraid to let the body hurt once more
the heart tried the best to make you mine
and then the brain had no reason not to let her love again
but secretly was planning to push you away
and so it did
the brain did pushed you away as he managed to trick the heart
into believing that it wasn't true love
but soon the heart found out
and the heart fought back
this war though has no winners
only losers
because the heart is fighting to win a heart
but that heart belongs to someone else
so the heart is fighting valiantly but
the chances of winning are almost zero
the brain is doing his best not to let the body fall apart
not to let the soul fall back to the darkness of the abyss
they both though fight for a battle that seems lost
but hope is always there as a good friend for both
to remind the one how he didn't fall to the abyss before
and to help the other fight the pain of loving a heart
that has no eyes for him...

YOU

crazy or not
a simple message from you
can turn a shitty day
into  a bright one

a simple smile of  you
can turn my depression
into pure happiness

a simple look from you
and i am lost in your eyes

just simply you 

simply missing you .

It might seem crazy i know
crazy that memories of you are running through my eyes
i don't need much to miss you
i simple wake up and i know i miss you
and no i don't miss the feeling of having someone next me
no i don't miss the feeling of kissing someone
no i don't miss the touch of two people holding hands
neither i miss the warm feeling of a hug
i simply miss having YOU next to me
miss kissing YOU
if i could redo our first kiss only one thing i would change
Kissing you quicker , for in that moment when our lips touched
i knew all ready how i would feel ,
 i knew that it will have to go through storms and bad choices
to always be with you
miss your hands thought ,those delicate small hands that always found a way
between my hand and through my fingers
i miss the hugs we had , they seemed too friendly i know
but they were something more
and of course i simply miss you
as plain and as simple as that
i miss your voice ,i miss your smile
i miss your eyes glowing with happyness
i miss your hair , i miss your smell
i simply miss you 

230 days

so many great poets and writers talked and wrote about love but yet there is not a specific way to determine what love is . Having read so many love poems and so many love quotes i can't either know for sure what love is .What i do know though is that 232 days ago i saw you  224080 minutes ago i last had the chance to touch you but since that day  without knowing it you touched me every day and every minute of my life . You touched my soul and you touched my heart and the funny thing is that you didn't even wanted it to happen . I don't regret trying ,i don't regret talking to you and i don't regret letting my soul open and naked for you to see , i didn't cared  if you would  take the step and give us another chance but i couldn't just sit and wait ,so i tried and i tried till i became a pain in the ass till  reached the edge of depression but the memorie of your smile brought me back . I tried  but you are with another man but that's ok i still tried ,i don't believe that if you love someone  you have to let him go and see if she returns to you but i do believe that if you love someone you want them to be happy with or without you ,of course the perfect scenario would be  to be happy being with me but  life is not perfect and i know that to be a fact .It was perfect for a short amount of time ,
a time where we used to be together but i failed to show it . it may never matter anymore cause we may never be together again but for me those few months where  the best months of my life ,no i am not just writing all this, this is the truth that i feel in my heart . Fact is though that i loved you and still do , fact is that 10 days ago you last talked to me and fact is that 14400  minutes ago you last said a word to me and fact is that i miss you so much .I don't know if that shows love or not but i wont stop trying ,i wont stop caring and surely i won't stop loving you cause i don't know when i ll see you again  , i don't know if it will be in 50 days in 100 days  and i don't know when you gonna talk to me again ,400 minutes  ,12000 minutes ? i don't know but i know i ll wait , i ll wait to see you and hopefully like last time when  i look in your  eyes you ll see that i mean everything i feel. I have no other way of loving you right now but wait for you to see ...

i give up but no i don't

i give up
i just stop right here
i wont do this anymore
i ll simply stop , cant do this
no need to keep working for something

I give up

I give up  chasing
i give up searching
i give up expecting
i give up...

I give  up chasing cause i have found the one
i give up  searching cause i don't need to search again
i give up expecting cause i only expect you

and for that i wond give up on you
i wont give up of me and you
i wont give up on us

i will wait  for you to come  back
i will wait for the pieces fall in to place again
and i will wait for us to be united  once more

till then i am happy for you
till then enjoy your life
till then i hope you are having a good time
and i hope you only break up to be with me

i am sorry i wont give up
but i can't and i wont give up
so have your life with him
but  hopefully we will meet again

All You've Seen - Upon Dark Clouds Are Bright Knives

two teenagers are riding with their bike towards  the mountain , to a place they only know
a place that you see the whole town just below their feet
they are  not running but they are enjoying their ride ...
holding hands and moving up together
as they go through the valeys and through the forests
the birds are flying high and the animals are running wild
both know allready what is coming all ready but they can't do much
all they have now is their love and their two bikes
they are getting close finally
and the sirens start to sound all over the world
they finally reach to their place
they leave their bikes to the ground and move to stand to the edge
they are holding hands as they are watching the down beneath them
the look up in the sky and see the  stars that start to fall down
one by one they hit the ground
they have a couple of seconds left
each start is falling to a different part of the town
they kiss and seal their eternal love
as the shockwave is destroying everything in it's path
and a single pigeon is flying above

rise and shine :)

rise and shine and most of all be happy .you didn't told me if you are happy , you just send me a smily .you know i will always care about you and i want you to be happy no matter what ..not just be ok but HAPPY ,the kind of happy that will make the world see it even if you want to keep it a secret ,the kind of happy where only by being present you help other people be happy cause they ll feel you being happy and they ll see you shine bright that kind of happy ,pure and unconditional happyness . and if you sometimes need someone to remind you that , am always gonna be there ,always and forever so just be HAPPY