how i losed you

the first time i saw you ,i really liked you . Some time moved by and we met again ,it was obvious i was completely into you  .Then you have to left but we started to  chat since you were away. Day by day we were talking and day by day i was more into you .Soon i realised that you are into me as well ,that feeling was the best feeling i felt after i learnt my mother was cured from cancer . That feeling of knowing such a beautiful person and such wonderful lady was into you  the way you was into her  ,what i wouldn't do to feel that again with you .We talked and talked and waited the moment you  would come back and finally see eye to eye .Till that time though i fall in love with you ,i told you and even though i might believe it was to early to say it ,i  meant it every time  i said it and the best part was that you said it to.Days finally gone by and our meeting was finally arranged , on top of a new crossing bridge in front of the sea . I will never forget my heart running like a Ferrari when i saw you coming up and i will never forget the moment we first touched and hugged.we then went to eat , we talked and then i realised that the feelings where more than true . We went for a small walk and sat on the beds just waiting for the right time to kiss you ,when it came i just did and my world suddenly felt complete . A lot  happened that summer though , even though i loved you i  was afraid to show it and was afraid of  been hurt again ,that made me do all the stupid and silly mistakes i did which let to breaking up .Before you go i tried  again  but was the  wrong way to , so i let you  go without really showing how much i wanted you . You went away for your studies and we kept in touch ,i tried more than once to show you how much you meant to me and how much i loved and still love you but you had every right to move on with your life ,after all you had your final year to finish.I kept trying though didn't wanted to be a push over so i gave you space and time , then i tried again and again and again but you were all ready gone . Now  i know you are with someone else ,we still talk of course but it  still breaks my heart and soul to see you with another man, i am trying to be strong but i can't ,not this time . I loved you truly and i still do but seeing you with someone else is killing me deep inside but i wont stop ,not because of jealousy but because i love you and i won't stop trying to get you back and i wont stop being there for you and i wont stop dreaming of us being together .i will simply wont give up on you , i won't give up on us even if it means going through the gates of hell again and walk all of it till i come out of it waiting for you . I am sorry but i wont stop