my alternative reality

Sometimes I caught my self thinking back

and memories instantly live up in my brain

my eyes start to roll like a movie reel

and all the images are flushing right in front of me

In those moments I feel complete

for I ,in those moments I transcend to another dimension

a dimension where feelings are enhanced and are felt more lively

in that dimension I get to feel the pain of my heart grow bigger

I feel the sadness I felt when my relative and friends died

feeling once the vanishing every time my dreams got crushed down over and over again

I feel all the hatred I had to endure and all the badmouthing I went through

but then my life gets brighter cause in that dimension happiness is somehow real

it destroys those sad and painful moments but not before you learn new things about yourself

and what I learned is that after all that pain ; I find my heart loving again I realize my mind is not giving up on the dreams I made even though everything seem so doomed , I realize that all that hate made me a better person and made me who I am.

So I embrace that reality ,i let it trainwreck my feelings cause in the end I know I ll be stronger than before .